你所认识的我，是一个怎样的人？

前提：
两个月前，认识了一个新朋友。和她还蛮谈得来，也成了无话不谈的朋友。而且也帮了她很多东西。可是，她说我对人太好，不是一件好事，尤其是如果有女朋友的话。。。我无所谓，因为我就是这样的咯，身边的朋友开心就可以了。
一星期前，认识了她的男朋友，也只见过面一次。过后，她告诉我，她的男友说我很喜欢“沟”女子。。。我真的很惊奇，既然会给人家这样的印象。。。哈哈

就是她男友的意见，让我这几天想了些东西，我是不是有点问题？
1，对人太好，不是好事？
2，为何其他的人会认为我有很多女性朋友？
3，我的印象给别人是否有点“花花”的？

1，我就是很喜欢帮人，虽然时常帮到过份，还很笨，可是我就是这样。无别的目的，就是不想让身边的朋友不开心。问了我的朋友，她说我有点过分对人好，没有任何女子喜欢男友这样。。。我也不懂，哈哈哈。。。

2，我的家人，还有我的好朋友们，总是讲我有很多女性朋友。可是我想来想去，就是那几个而已，为何大家就是会认为？有人说，可能我的Profile很高吧？可是我一向以为我是Low Profile的。。。

3，我很花吗？我不喜欢也不会一脚踏二船，为何会有人认为我很花呢？可能我讲话有点无聊，爱开玩笑，而让人家认为我不正经吧？没变，其实我讲话不正经时，这也表示我很大压力，想让自己轻松而已。最重要是让自己活的开心，毕竟我不可以给自己太大的压力。。。

改，不可能吧！性格不可能改得到的。

但我很想知道，在大家心里，我是怎样的人？哈哈哈

23rd, December, My birthday

Today, is my big day... actually it's boring and a bit special. Never be alone during my birthday at the pass few year. Previous year have my girlfriend to celebrate with me. last year find some friend out with me. But this year, I not going any where, just stay at home. Well.... just feel dun want to go out... may be prefer a real GF to accompany and not simply dating out with others. haha...

However, I didn't feel and sad or unhappy. It's just like normal day for me, rest during weekend. Continure work the other day... normaly.. haha

三月一次又来了

应该有三个月了吧？
心情又开始有点低落了，只是想一个人静静。

就近接了两个新Job，两个也还很赶。唯有玩太极，其中一个拖得就拖。昨天终于完成了其中一个，但还有一个等着我。。。不过我一决定休息一天。。。在家度过一个很蓝很蓝的晚上，希望明天会没事吧！！！

The Week In Phuket Office....

Finally I back from the Phuket office, the 5 days trip... however, it's really a busy week for me. All the meeting, discussion, training never stop from Monday to Friday. Busy till I cannot breath. The Phuket office still remain the same, all quite and doing their work only. You will never hear anyone chatting, even you won't hear any phone ringing too. I just wondering how they work without chatting to each other. May be this is the Thailand office culture, work mean work...

However, this trip I be able to join some of the staff for dinner. This is the first time I join them. Even I have been 4 times to the office, but previously just stay alone and didn't join anyone. They really friendly, bring us to dinner, drinking, and chat a lot of topic. I really like their culture. In office, they concentrate on their work, but after working hour, they all hang out together for dinner, badminton and a lot activities....

Friday nite, when I back to KL, I took taxi back to my house. The taxi driver told me there have a lot or road block in KL. I just wondering what happen to Malaysia between the few days, sound like have a serious thing happen in Malaysia. However, the other day still have road block and I find out it's a democracy in KL. And all them wearing yellow shirt, lucky I not wearing yellow shirt when I going out. :D

小时候的我！！！

就近一直想起小时的我，一个很静又没朋友的小肥仔，而且小时的我，会有很多奇怪的疑问：

• 世界到底是什么？为什么会有人类？
• 生老病死又有什么意义？活着又是为了什么？因为死了就什么都没了，难道真的有天堂与地狱？
• 为什么人类会有细想？而动物就没呢？

还有很多古怪的想法，想回也觉得好笑。
我要无烦恼的生活，那些无聊的东西，就别想那么多了。哈哈
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因为最重要的是快乐，身边的朋友，家人身体健康。
很老土吧？可是我就是不喜欢看到身边的朋友不高兴咯。哈哈

My new deco in my house....

Again, too bore, so just shoot these 2 new vase to put on the blog lor
hahaha, so, any commend? nice ar? I like it a lot, this saturday continue add some new stuff to my house again.

My mum 1 month didn't come here liao, once she come, sure kena marah. Sure will complain it look like a store room, so many thing around. hahaha

Sunday, 11pm now, a boring day...

8 morning, my sister called me up. I knew there have something happen. Normally she won't call me that early, unless something emergency. However, she told me that my brother not going back yesterday night, and worry about him. Cos he go to Disco last night. However, I ask her to try call Fitness First's gang, coz my brother going out with them. Of course, I sure worry about it, coz he will drunk like hell if no one control him. Last time I have to wake up at 4am and go fetch him back.... However, I cannot sleep back and just wake up and prepare for the badminton...

I keep on calling my brother handphone and it's cannot get through... I keep on telling myself that my sister didn't call me back that mean she manage to know my brother situation... However, I will still thinking a lot of nonsence thing, that is me... sometime will think too much and worry too much...

While at the badminton, I still cannot manage to call my brother phone, so I just call my sister... She told me she manage to call one of the Fitness First's gang, they tell her that my brother was drunk like hell yesterday, so they didn't send him back, and get one of them to bring to their house... And my sister told me my mum very angry, so I just tell her, as long as my brother is safe, then dun worry lor...

Around 2pm, I finally manage to call my brother. Tell him dun act like this next time. And said all are worry about him... Phone cannot get through, not call back home even not back home... the reason is his phone is no battery. So I told him if next time happen again just use friend's phone to call... rather than the whole family worry about him... hahaha...

Well, I just stay at my condo to do my work wholeday, an evening, I thinking to back to Kajang to have dinner with my mum. But my mum already have date with my auntie, I have to eat alone this time... so bad... if I know I should date someone out, if not I won't bore and writing the boring blog here.... hahaha... a weekend which passing fast~~~ work tomoro again~~~

漫长的假期~~

已经一点多了，还没睡。很久没那么夜了，已经老了。。。
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妈妈已去旅行了，所以我也没回老家。。。在家自己闷闷着~~~
<-.-> 想到还有三天要在家里闷，很闲也。。。
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其实有很多东西可以做，就是因为太多，不知从何开始。。。
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近来又开始迷上看小说了，《相约星期二》，《放风筝的男孩》。。。
现在看着《你在天堂里遇见的五个人》，真的有点无聊吧？
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One Nite in Serendah

6th - 7th Oct 2007
The second day back from Phuket, I go to Serendah with my gang of friends (a place near Rawang). It's a very natural place, where our phone is totally have no signal. The have a swimming pool, a little river, a natural insect sound.... Having a nite stay in a place where no phone disturbing...

Second day in Phuket

6th Oct 2007
This morning real headache, so around 10++ only wake up to have breakfast and have short walk beside the beach, :D

I rent a motor and ride to Karon and Kata Beach (I stay at Patong Beach). thay site not that happenning , not as much as shop like Patong, but all the Resort there is nice. and the beach not that much ppl.

With the motor, I ride the whole Patong a lot time, Police also stop me to check my license, lucky I have moto license, haha... again, afternoon have raining also, lucky I'm hotel resting.

Nite time, go for massage again, 2 hours, and really enjoyable. Shop again as normal, but not really buy anything today. Coz almost all the places are selling the same thing. now just relaxing in the hotel and watching TV. :)

Tomoro will the last day....

First day in Phuket

5th Oct 2007
Yo, finally arrive Phuket, as usual, just get a taxi to fetch me to the hotel. On the way, the Taxi Drvier told me that the hotel is under renovation, non wonder so cheap lar,, haha, never mind lar, as long as the loction is good and the room is clean.

well, I start my first shopping at 2pm, and also taking my lunch, but,while I having my lunch, the rain is coming, where I saw from the beach. however, I walk too far and not enough time for me to back to the hotel. non matter how, I using the plastic beg to cover my potch, and continue walk under the rain, so esxiting, too long didn't walk under the heavy rain.

around 5pm, I go to look for my dinner, not in any restaurant, just simply get some food from those small store. and also have the foot massage, haha, it's nice environment and I will go again the other day.

night, I get the internet connection for my room, the fee not cheap. but just buy lor, I also have the night shopping and buy the thing I want. actually my purpose to Phuket just want to buy something to decorate my house.. haha... too rich? no lar, just company paying mid year bonus, so have some extra money to use lor. hihi dun jealous wo...

Day before my journey

Yeah, tomoro will start my holiday again... this time I will be travel alone, 3 days 2 nights... to...... PHUKET (sweat, again).

However, I have thinking going to other places like Bangkok, Bali... but finally still choosing here, coz I more familiar on it. 3 days not really can go to explore a new area lor. I have been Phuket 4 times, and the last trip just at July. Haha, however, the main reason is the Flight more cheaper than others lor... :D

Before I decide this trip, I have trying to ask friend to join, but all are busy and too last minute for them. So I decide to travel alone this time. However, this coming days will full of planning..

- Thursday to Saturday will at Phuket (yeah, relaxing)
- Saturday nite need to rush to friend's wedding dinner.
- After dinner need to rush to friend's house warming.
- Sunday to Monday will going to Serendah (Camping site), with all my "pig" friend "dog" friend (猪朋狗友）.
- Tuesday of course back to work, hahaha

Really cannot wait. hope today time can gone faster... hahaha.

My House~~ The place make me lazy~~

Have been moving the new house more then half year, but only recently start decorate it. previously have a lot ideas, but just lazy to do it. Now, almost every Saturday will do some about my house. The progress a bit slow, coz only spend a few hour, like painting the wall, putting the photo frame. Actually I doing all this with my friend, he study interior design and use my house as the experiment. haha. here is some of the photo. 50% done for living room only.

Still under progress, 50% done of decoration. haha

Outside the window view

Outside the window view

best birthday present to my boss

"You give a very good b'day gift" my boss tell me....

today is my boss birthday...

"A resign letter" to him

between 1 hour time chating, I agree to stay here again with a new offer. Really appreciate my boss treat me so good...

Now have to get back to the new company....sorry....

Resign~~~

Today, my colleage was resign, but strange, my boss want her to terminate immediately... I dun know it's nice or bad... just feel my boss is funny, always doing such a stupid thing...

However, it's my turn to give my resign letter soon, I just wondering what will happen to me soon. There have a good offer for me, but I really like this company colleague, environment. And can travel to Phuket too. hahaha...

... ... Finally ... ...

After a week, finally I made up my mind...
Just leave all the thing behind...
Two more week to go...
Go try it out...
And enjoy...
Yeah...

*Crazy Butt is really siao now...

Crazy Wednesday~~~

I just feel I a bit crazy today, suddenly think of going to holiday again. PHUKET....

Keep on asking who can accompany me going there... hai... it's really bad if don't have a GF, wanna go holiday also no people accompany...

My Wish List, Who can buy for me, haha

想念~

驾着车时，两个眼睛既然装满了泪水。。。

因为我，开始想念着他了。。。

八年了，我还是很想念你。。。
一个永远支持我的人，
对我很有信心的人，
最了解我的人。。。

一个我最尊敬的人，
我最“teh”的人。。。

他就是我的爸爸。。。我最敬爱的人。。。

想起你支持我进童军，
想起你很自豪的告诉别人我考第一，
想起你带我去喝酒（当然我只是喝汽水）
想起你鞭打我的时候（全家只有我被爸爸打过）
想起你和我聊心事的时候
很多很多很多~

很想和你聊聊我的事情，已不能了。。。
因为你已不在我身边了。。。

爸爸，你是最了解我的，对我很有信心也从不担心我，我一定不会让你失望的。

A nice Tuesday

Today, arrived office a bit early, 8:15am already at office area. After my breakfast alone (As usual), it's only 8:30am. Then step inside office, and writing the blog again...
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Yesterday, Tuesday was a nice day for me. I took half day leave on the afternoon, look for friends lunch, go to Mid Valley looking for another friend, and back home. It's look like a very relax day. But that will be the problem for me. At home, I start thinking nonsence thing, start missing her (A gal who I should not miss for, this will make me more suffer)... alone at the home, facing the empty house, it's too lonely for me...
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9+, Gary called me, asking come out to have a drink. Of course I direct said yes, better then stay at home and keep on thinking negative thing and miss her.....
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At the "Gold Mountain", a chinese restaurant where we always drink beer, it;s cheap there. Yen Shin also join us. And we call Kevin to come, he replyno problem, really supprise us that he wanna join us all the way from PJ to Cheras. However, we didn't call Ah Bao, coz worry when he arrive then we will dismiss, coz it's weekday, we won't drink late.
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We chating, drinking, smoking (again). it's really enjoy, all my friend like knowing I'm suffer today, come to accompany me, even this drinking is call up by Gary. Kevin telling about he's new' house story, Yen Shin bring his saxophone let us try, Me talking my stupid bore life, chating about the TEA..... All the nite long chating without any bore.... and we drink just enough, a bit high but not drunk... then Yen Shin start talking about me, just like he knew what happen to me. giving me advise.... I really feel glad and listen to him...
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Even now I always free lonely (I mean no GF) but I really glad that I still have a group of friend like them, they will never feel bore to accompany me. Friends, I have really a lot, but a group of friend like them, really take care of me, treat me well, I really appreaciate... friends who really know about me. I really lucky to know them...

When I driving back home, I really very touching... I always free lonely but actually I not, because my friends are always here.

The worst holiday I never have before....

转眼间，3天的假期有过了。我的朋友都说我很爽，可以去Langkawi玩。可是，我并没有高兴的感觉。。。三十号当天，与朋友一起喝酒，聊天。他们都说我很傻，浪费钱去Langkawi。他们的理由是，和两个不是自己的女朋友去很无聊，还是很无谓的浪费钱。因为并不是一两百，而是上千。。。

我们只有三个人去Langkawi，我，C（我的好朋友，女）和J（C 的同事，40多岁，女）。一男二女，听上去很像很不错。可是我没有高兴的感觉：
一，C 并不是我的女朋友。
二，J 对我的印象不是很好，我也一样，但我并不会特别如何介意。
三，之前和他们已经有一次不是很好的旅行经验。不过，我也尽量的配合。

到达时，我门租了一辆车。然后去Kuah买些烟，酒。吃点东西。。。然后回酒店。在酒店房间里，C有点累所以她小睡了一下。而J就在露台吸烟和休息。而我唯有看书及做点我自己的东西。。。接近六点时，J从露台进来，用了一点埋怨的语气说C还在睡觉，我当然听到，但并没做出任何反应。就在J从露台进来时，我发现有个黑影，结果一看，是猴子也。我立刻大声喊，猴子立刻拿了面包就走。C也因此而醒了，大家也讨论猴子而J也没埋怨什么了。
我们去了Pandai Cenang吃晚餐，然后C和J都很累，没有Shopping就回酒店了。然后我们在酒店周围跑跑，在Lobby喝酒，过后便回房间。。。在房间，我和C一边谈天和喝酒。J已经睡了。哪知突然J醒了，然后说我们很吵，过后就说自己出去跑跑。虽然天已暗了，半夜1点多，但我没理他，而我也走出露台吸烟，想看看J会去那里。因为我不可能放下C而出去找J吧。在露台我没看到J的影子走出外面，所以我想她应该只是在门口吧。当C已睡了，我便开门看看J是否在外面。果然是在门口吸烟。我便叫J进去，和她喝了一瓶酒，我也顶不顺了就走进厕所呕吐。。。然后就睡了。。。

(English Version for the above part)
The 3 days holidays is pass, a lot of my friend said that I so happy can go holiday in Langkawi, but honestly, I not really have any special happy feeling about this trip (Before). At 30th nite, I have the drinking session with my group of friend, they scold me that I so stupid, coz I should not spend so many time in gals who not my GF, and wasting money, coz this not a small amount, it's more then 1 thousand.

Actually we have only 3 person going to Langkawi, me, C (my best friend, female), and J (C's colelaue, 40++ year old, Female). 1 male 2 female, it's sound very nce, right? but I just fell nothing special for me:
1, C not my girl friend
2, J have not really have good impression about me, same as me, but I dun mind also.
3, Have a very "unforgetful" travel experience with them. but I will try to coordinate with.

When arrive Langkawi, we rent a car. Go to Kuah town to buy some cigarette, beer and have some meal. After back to hotel, C have a short snap, J smoke at the porch. Then I read my novel and doing my own stuff. Almost 6, J come in a say then C still sleep (with a very unhappy tone). I hear it but I didn't really do any re-action. At the same time, I saw a black shadow behind J, and IT A MONKEY, I just shout out very loud. the monkey took the bun and ran away. However, C also wake up at the same time. and we just discuss about the monkey and J also back to normal.

We have our dinner at Pandai Cenang, then back to hotel coz C and J also feel tire. At hotel, we walk around, have drink at the lobby pub. then back to room around 11++. J was tire and sleep. then me and C was chating and drinking. around 1, J sundently wake up, and complaining us very noice and disturbing her sleep, then she just walk out said want to have a walk outside. Of course I didn't stop her, then I go out the porch to smoke, C also tire and sleep. after I wait C really sleep, I just try to go out see J is around or not. Coz I didn't see her walk out at the porch, so I suspect she just at outsite the door. and she really outsite there. I ask her to come in and trying to drink a bit with her, but I start drunk that time. after the first beer with her, I direct go vomit, then sleep...

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For the first day, I still find the trip is ok, even we didn't walk at Pandai Cenang, didn't drink at the Pub near the harbor... but at least I still enjoy it.. :)

Second day morning, C is the earlier ppl wake up... may be she rest too much the day before. However, I already wakeup at 7++, but just headache, so hope to sleep more longer... C was listen to the music from her phone, and I also enjoying it but just still lie on the bed and lazy to wake up.... and no one know this will be the bad day for all of us... because actually J got a little unhappy for the musiz, disturbing she sleep (I knew it when we talk about at night time).

Around 10++, I only wake up and washing my face, so can get ready to go out anytime. J also wakeup around that time. Then she turn on the TV, and there have a program the about the Princess Diana, J want to watch it, so me and C were go around the hotel to walk, specially the beach, coz I want to try the floating jeti...

We took our breakfast at the beach restaurant, and J joining us also. And the unhappy thing start slow from here, J show the "black" face, which I dun know what happen. However, I won;t care and want to enjoy myself. So after a while, I really feel bore there, coz J keep on ordering beer, but I dun feel to drink, so I just suggest that I going to swimming. then J want C to accompany her and they have chating there. So I just go alone, and this is the best time, coz I can enjoy myself without caring them... haha... however, I bring my novel and reading on the beach side, enjoying listen the sound of wave... after an hour C joining me on the beach and chat, of course smoke also, she lie on the beach chaise and sleep there, I continue reading and final finished the whole novel. J didn't join us coz she fall in sleep on the other site. Around 4, it's time to get ready for our sunset cruise, also the unhappy thing start happen.... J said she already get drunk, however, I hope really all of us join the cruise, so finally all still going too.

- She talk unpolite with my friend, Steven. Who the manager of this cruise.
- She smoke in the car, which Steven dun like it, I feel it.

During the cruise, I almost enjoy alone. J keep on showing the black face, I just feel she not even want to talk to me. However, I won't care just keeping myself to enjoy. J and C were have their private discussion there. Once, I want to ask C to look at the rainbow, then J direct ask me dun interupt her conversation with C. I really get angry, I dun like ppl unpolite to me. I directly asking her is it want to quarrel? that's me, I dun like angry, but once u make me angry, then u in trouble... However, C is there, so I didn't continue it. Enjoying myself continue looking at the sunset, chating with the host (he called Din), and both of them continue their chat there.


For the Sunset Cruise.
Steven special arrange this cruise for only 3 of us (I tot have other ppl at first). and given us a very very special price, I really want to thanks to him.
Din, the host of the cruise, he really a nice guy, thank to giving me a nice cruise trip. Chating with me when I alone on the cruise... thanks, I really enjoy it.

when get back to hotel, I not even talk even a word with J. I will treat ppl nice, but once I know that the person not appreciate. I will just ignore the person. and dun expect me will do anything about this. Coz I a guy who dun like to "tam" ppl. I treat u nice, if u dun take it then just forget it lor... hihi, why must I go "tam" u ler, so trouble and childish lor. If GF, then will be different story. haha

At the ealier night, we have a talk about the situation. All are settle and getting fine. But, at the late night, the quarrel start again in the room just for a small matter. I never querrel with friend... but I really cannot tahan the attidute. Actually when I see C getting mad, I really angry, why J must make the situation getting worst.... she already 40++, still like a small kid... when the time I shout out the "F" word, honestly, I have no feeling, I not really angry like hell, just I dun like the situation. I just want to make this situation end, so I be the bad guy.

Normally when I angry, my heart beat will fast, but this time, I just normal. very cool, just I dun want to see J face only. haha.. sit outsite the door, dun want to chat and smoke, then back to sleep.

For the trip, I heartache to see C like that, she want to have a very happiness holiday, but end out with this kind of situation. nothing I can do for her, coz I just a friend in this roll ... no a BF, still have a lot thing I cannot do and say. Friend and BF go holiday always have different feeling. my previous experience, I really very very enjoy with my ex-gf for holiday (even only 2 person), but now is with friend, it's will be different story. However, I really wish her can get a BF (must be good one wo) very soon... at least I think she will more happy then now if have a good BF lor. I cannot be her BF, but I want see C happy, then I will happy too...

well, the trip just end like that. I still be able to enjoy myself, I always like that. Just it's really waste for C, she seldom holiday and having this bad experience... Hope she really can enjoy a real happiness holiday in the future...

Life is enjoy... happy is the most important thing, dun let the sad or unhappy environment to spoil your mood...

~~~Badminton~~~

Since I move to Cheras almost more then half year, my gang start playing Badminton every Sunday. This really good, we been non stop playing it every week. Trying not to stop it.

From the picture, you will find out how professional we are, we start from 9 until 12++pm. coz the court is FREE, somemore early morning, less people playing.

Our team, Kevin, Gary, Ah Bao, Yen Shin, and me almost play every week, Patrick have some injuring, so he already stop for a while. Hope he will joining us back soon. Our new member, Alvin, he just join us last week. and relly glad if have more people can joining us. There have 3 courts in the hall. Sometime we will occupy 2 court if have more people join. like Gary Sister's bf, Kevin's brother...

Kevin, the Best player among us. Rest, waiting for the next match

Gary, nice post...

Ah Bao and Yen Shin

咳嗽。。。。

腰，已经没什么事了吧。虽然每天起床时，腰还很僵硬，可能还没完全恢复吧！至少不会痛到趴在地上。。。
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以为健康会好一点，没想到现在又咳嗽了。。。
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如果我没记错，我应该没咳嗽过那么严重吧！已经一个星期了，通常我只是两三天而已。
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已看了医生，希望会好点吧！

腰......

腰还是那么的痛。我想应该很严重了吧！
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起床时，既然连站着也很痛，完全不能站直。前后有十分钟吧！
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看完电视，既然完全不能站上来。趴在地上5分钟。完完全全不能站上来，最后忍着痛才勉强可以站直。还要忍着痛十分钟才可以活动。。。
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今早起床，以为会好点，结果既然连换衣服也苦难。。。
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今晚唯有大出血去看铁打了。。。（很贵也）>0<

Thailand Trip - 18th July to 24th July 2007 , ~~~English Version

Since some of my friend don't know Chinese, so I just write another Thailand trip in English, haha, actually I more prefer English also, can practice my English. and I also can type faster. However, my English is very bad, please forgive me if I using the wrong grammar or wrong spelling. sign.....

This is my second trip with my gang to fly outside Malaysia. Badly that Kevin and Rachel still not joining us for this trip again. After the previous trip, Cambodia (December 2006), we have plan for this almost half year. the Flight ticket is booked when the Air Asia have the ZERO Rate promotion, and we directly book for 10 tickets, they are:

• Old man and his wife : Wee Teck and Stella
• Tea family : Gary and Tracy
• The bookstore boss from JB : Kian Ping and Pei Zhi
• Our photographer : Kevin and Rachel
• The 2 lonely guys : Ryan (Ah Bao) and Butt (me)

However, we only have 7 peoples can make this trip at the final, as :

• Kevin and Rachel need to move their new house, so need to save some money.
• Gary don't want Tracy follow, so purposely make her pregnant, haha... just kidding. He miss Tracy a lot during the rip, and I really hope all the gang can go together. also congratulation to Gary and Tracy have second baby soon.

Okay, lets start our 7 days 6 nights journey, with only 7 persons this time~~

Day 1, 18th July 2007
"You have Incoming Message", my SMS rang on the earlier 5:30 morning, it's from the boring KP, they already arrive KL (Vteck, Stella, KP and Pei Zhi coming from Johor). He too boring and wanna disturb us sleep (he also SMS to Gary and Kevin at the early 5:30 morning). However, I only will move from house to Airport at 7am, so I continue sleep again and ignore the message~~

Around 12:30pm (Thailand time), we arrived Bangkok, Thailand. This is our first destination. Before this, I already booked a Hotel call Sawasdee Bangkok Inn, it's locate an Khao San Road. As when I looking for information about Bangkok, this road is famous for backpackers, and the hotels is much cheaper if compare to Bangkok city area. It's have light rain when we arrive Khao San Road. After we checking in, we go for our first meal in Thailand.

Alone the Khao San road, you will notice a lot of western people. As 90% of the tourist are western country. I been so others country before, never since that much western people gather in a place. Khao San Road have a lot of cloth store which very cheap price. However, I not really buy a lot thing at Khao San, coz it's still the first day and need to keep my budget. On the same time, we have to settle the transport to Koh Samui (our next destination). We trying to get the train to there but unfortunately the train ticket is full, so we have to take bus to Koh Samui.

We walk around the Khao San during the afternoon. Around evening, we plan to move out Khao San and go to Chinatown, but all the taxi quote us high price, the reason is very jam at that time. So we decide to back to hotel have a short rest and move again at night time. The 2 couples go for their first Massage at Thailand, as I feel lazy and didn't join them.

Night... We go to the Chinatown, at first I thought its will be a very happening place but it's not. The street just have a lot of chinese seafood restaurant, so we just step into one of them to have our dinner. We order Shark fin, bird nest, and some others. It's a bit expensive as out of my budget (I planning to spend 500 Thai Bath for food each day). After dinner, we walk around the street, nothing much special. It;s just have a lot food store, lot of shop with Chinese sign board. After a while, we decide to move to another night market, call Pat Pong. We took 2 taxi to there again, the night market is very big, and a lot of Disco and pub alone the road. if you look into those pub, you can see a lot girl wearing a sexy cloth, trying to get your attention. However, I not really like these pub, it's noise and feel uncomfortable. we just stay on this area around 30 minutes, then all agree to go back to Khao San to have our beer drinking session.

However, Khao San still the best place for us. It's not that crowd. We simply choose a pub and order a Tower of beer. However, it's around 11 night, it's still young night for us, beside 1 tower of beer, we still order a few big bottle beer to drink. Vteck and Stella was getting tire, so they move back to hotel for rest first. and the rest of us continue enjoying the beer and chatting. The time is passing quite fast, Around 1am, we stand up and walking around the street again. See around the night life here, a lot of lady boy (means a male body become a Female body, I prefer to call them SheMale), they stand along the road and trying to get some "business" from tourist. We stop nearby our hotel, and found a delicious food store, by chinese. He be able to speak chinese with us, so we order 2 soup (鱼鳔). It's really very nice. We sit beside on the street and enjoy our delicious soup. And also enjoy looking all the SheMale harassment those western tourist. Ah Bao want to have a walk to the other site search for more food, he really can eat a lot. At the same time, a SheMale come over and chat with him, once the SheMale knew he's from Malaysia, directly step away. haha... Malaysian tourist not lagu lar.... around 2am, we back to hotel and sleep~~~~

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Day 2, 19th July 2007
I forget what time we wake up, I think around 8 something. Gary wake up more early then me. As he getting old, cannot sleep till late now, hihi. We enjoy our breakfast at the hotel as there provide breakfast also. Then just waiting the 2 couples, they have their breakfast around 9 something and even 10. As we will move to Koh Samui tonight, so we need to checkout the hotel before 12, if not they will charge us for the extend. However, we still extend 1 room, to keep all our backpack, and we can have shower before moving to Koh Samui tonight.

11am, we walk to the Palace where only 30 minute walking distance. On the way, we can see some nice sculpture, and I just shoot some of it. When we almost arrive that Palace, a guy wearing a formal suit, just look like the officer at the Palace. He told that we need to wear long pants to enter the Palace, but some of us are wearing short pants. However, he explain that after 1pm the palace is open to public, so every one can just wear short pants inside (nonsense, we really thought he's telling the true). At that time is around 11:30am, so if this is real, we need to wait around 1 hour plus to enter the Palace. So, he very kind and suggest us to visit other place first, which near by a river. We can took the boat ride the river around 1 hour, and visit a Temple beside the river (300Thai Bath per person). It's sound very interesting, and he help us to call the Tuk Tuk, only 10 Thai Bath, MYR1 only. That time we really think that it's very good deal.

For the river ride, I have been Bangkok 2 years ago, it's actually a very interested place. Along the river, there have some Temple, interest building, even fish. But we don't have a tour guide, so no one can explain us all the history and interest place. We just feel a bit bore about this ride, it's just stop an the "Floating Market", but only 3 or 4 boat selling souvenir there. and a boxing presentation, which need another 200 Thai Bath, so we rejected. Around 40 minute, all of them start bore, coz we supposedly stop at a temple and visit it. Which I come before, and this Temple a bit also. Vteck trying to asking the guy, but that guy like don't know English, but I knew that Temple is the last pier before we going back. So I just told them cool down, and tell them the temple not arrive yet... When I saw the Temple is nearby, the boat didn't stop there, and bring us to the next pier, I though that is the place for us to buy souvenir. After we get down the boat, and trying to go into that shop. The guy stop us, said we need to pay for 20Bath for entrance fee. We really surprise. it's really like stupid, we thinking we just go inside and have drink or food. Why we need to pay for the entrance fee? however, we still paying it to enter. After a while, we thought the boat will come back pick us up, but it's like the boat already disappear from the pier. Vteck go ask the information counter, then we notice we been CHEATED, this is the last station, and we notice the Palace just outside another entrance.

The boat didn't bring us to the TEMPLE.... hai~, nothing we can do now... when we go to the Palace, we still need to wear long pants to enter it, but u can borrow from them which is free, just need to put 100Bath as a deposit. while we line up to borrow the long pants, there have a lot of paper stick on the wall and write "Don't trust the stranger..." but it's already too late for us, WE BEEN CHEATED... We took around half an hour to borrow the long pants, and we notice need to paid 250Thai Bath to enter... However, all of us decide not to go in, as it's doesn't look interesting to us. haha,,, use half an hour to borrow cloth and finally didn't go in also... one of the reason is we been cheated and already feel bore. Again, no place to go now, so go back to Khao San again, to have our lunch...

After lunch at Khao San, we just relax and the restaurant, chit chating. Then seperate, who want shopping then shop. After 2 hour of lunch, we go to Massage. I took oil massage this time, it's really nice, and relaxing. Time is around 6 plus, we need to get ready for Koh Samui now, the bus will come pick us up at 8, so we shower and have our dinner quikly. I took my dinner with the food store, flied mee, it's very delicious and I have 2 of it.. :)

8pm, we get ready to the bus. As we need to walk to another street, the bus will pick us there. and again. 9pm, Koh Samui, we are comming. and this is a long journey. I cannot sleep at all the whole night, not use to taken bus. After the rest station, I change place with Gary, then I only be able to sleep a bit that time.

Khao San Road, this is really a nice place. In future, I sure will come again. I like the evironment, not that crowd. and cheap... Good bye Bangkok, we should stay another night, but just worry that Bangkok will have revolt, coz the politic in Thailand not stable right now.

Day 3, 20th July

We took almost 15 hour to arrive Koh Samui. Around 5:30am, we arrive the pier, but the Speed Boat only start at 7am, so we have to wait for it. At the same time, Gary, KP and me was play Mahjong... even it's short while. From Bangkok to pier, it's use almost 9 hours, then we still need to take 5 hour to Koh Samui by speed boat. when the time we reach Koh Samui island, it's already 1230pm. However, the transport company send us to the Chaweng Beach too. we separate to 2 cars, coz we have too many people and the car is already full. Me, Ah Bao, KP and Pei Zhi was in the same car. We reach Chaweng first, and ask the driver to drop us at the Pizza Hut, so easy to meet with the others 3. When I there, I see the have a budget hotel just next to Pizza Hut, so I just step in and ask for the rates. It's 500Bath for double and 900Bath for triple. The price is reasonable, just this not a beach hotel.

When Vteck, Stella and Gary arrive, they said the driver can bring us to look for beach hotel. and it's free. So we just get into the van and let the driver bring us look for hotel.

First hotel, Gary and me didn't check for the hotel. We let Ah Bao, Vteck and KP decide. commend from them, this hotel got a lot of fly. even the price is around 700Bath, and really cheap. However, the driver bring us to another hotel again, this time, their commend is the 2 rooms have renovation beside, not nice and small, and it's cost 1400Bath... a bit out of our budget. however, the driver a bit frustrated. So I just suggest him to bring us to a resort call Ever Green Resort, which when I doing the research, this hotel is cheap and nice. Bad this is a bad luck for us, the hotel is full.... beside this hotel have a hotel call B.B Garden Resort (it's have swimming pool and around 1400bath, we found out it later), but the driver didn't suggest us, and bring us to another hotel. This time, the hotel rate is 1800Bath, more expensive, but all us already hungry. So we just decide to stop here, and stay for 1 night first.

After putting all our luggage, we go to a Indian Restaurant, but all of us taste Thailand food, haha... funny... We discuss what we need to do next here, So, Gary, me and Ah bao will go look for the hotel for our second night. Then Vteck will look for our snokerling trip for the next day. Since this incident, we all decide to book the Phuket (our last destination) hotel first, so it's my task to do it, and I also need to book for flight ticket to Phuket. It's cheaper we book online compair to the travel agent.

Gary, Ah Bao and me, looking around and get cheap hotel for our following night. Finally we found a guesthouse call Mody Dick guesthouse. After that I just step into one of the internet cafe, to do my flight booking and hotel reservation in Phuket. Yeah, finaly it's done, so I can start shopping this time. However, the shop here not as friendly as Bangkok. Their price is much expensive and canot bargain much. The time is getting late, almost 5pm. It;s time to go back to hotel to enjoy the beach :D

We have our dinner in Mc Donald, :) I tried the pork burger, as in Malaysia is imposible to get it. Shit.... it;s rainning outside, and a very very heavy rain... we cannot enjoy the night life here, so we just bought some beer and go back to hotels and drink. and around 12 plus, all get back to rooms for rest....

Day 4, 21st July
We wake up around 6am, we need to get really for check out, have our breakfast in Mc Donald. Then check in another hotel (Mody Dick guesthouse) around 8 am. The agent picking us around 8:50am (Should between 8 to 8:30am) .... Yeah, finally can go snorkeling....

We stop at a sea side, and just jump into the water from the boat. The water here not really clear, not much fish, the coral not that nice if comparing to my previous snorkeling trip. However, since we are here, we sure need to enjoy it. Snorkeling....feed the fish... taking photo... we only stop at here around 45 minutes, and move to the next place.

This is a beach site now... we have our kayaking here. Gary, Ah Bao and me have the same kayak. and trying to go far away but they not allow... too bad. Between the 3 kayak, Vtech and Stella is the best, they really good on it. 3 of us, trying to play with others. and make our self fall into the water. And really hard to climb back to the kayak... after a while, we back to the beach and enjoy our lunch. Honestly, the lunch look terrible, but it's the best taste meal during our whole trip... After lunch, I lie on the beach, and trying to have some sun tan... haha... only a while. Then start to shoot some photo around the beach.

This time, me and Ah Bao kayaking again, we just discuss how we fall in the water just now. and trying to play again.. But this time.. it's really hard for us to climb up to the kayak from the water again... we tried more 10 times. I climb up first or even Ah Bao up first, fall into water again when the second people trying to climb up... finally both of us give up and just swimming back to the beach. Gary and KP keep on laughing at us,... hai~~~.. then both them take the challenge, they said our balancing is bad... so I was asking them to try, I sat on the kayak and Gary to climb, it's very easy for him, then KP try, it's easy for him too.. then Ah Bao want to try again. OPSSS.. I fall into water again.. haha... me and Ah Bao really cannot work together. :P

Me getting tire already... the just swimming near the beach, and get back to the boat, it's getting hottest outside... around 1pm, the guide said that the other side have more pretty coral and fish. but I really tire, just sit on the boat and smoke, they all go there for snorkeling and they told me it's much better.

1:30pm, we move back to our pier and getting back to hotel again.. around 3, we get back to our hotels, we take turn to shower. and go out to shopping again. some go massage... around 7 we meet up again to have dinner. After dinner, we just have our beer on the Pub below our hotel ...around 11, we decide to go 7-11 to buy some beer and back to hotel room drink again. Some funny thing happen, Vteck start getting drunk, we thought he just kidding, coz he only drink 1 glass Gin Island cocktail.. But it's true, he direct back to his room and sleep. So we continue our drinking....then sleep....

Day 5, 22nd July
Again, 5:30 am we already wake up. coz we need to take the flight to Phuket at the early morning, the flight is 8:15am, so we need to arrive the airport around 7 to check in. 630 the taxi will be waiting us, we ask the hotel to arrange the tansport for us last nite. FREE? nono... we need to paid for it, they use Toyota Hilux to pick us, so me, Gary and Ah Bao have to sit behind... It's nice, can enjoy the morning air...

The Samui Air Port in much better then what I expert, you need to checkin in the counter first, then will have bus to transfer to the boarding place. And guess what, we really admire their toilet. It's have very nice design and comfortable, even have a fish tank inside the toilet. haha,, we even shoot the photo inside.

Around 9++ we arrive Phuket, this is my 4th time to phuket. However, previous 3 times I just came here for work. Not really explore the whole Phuket, expecially Patong Beach (the most happening place in Phuket).

We took a Van to Patong Beach, our last destination. I have make the reservatoin when at Koh Samui. Using my company website, http://www.latestays.com/, when you want get cheap hotel, can login this page to book.. Haha,, advertise for my company first. :)

the hotel I book is cheaper then others. And the have a swimming pool too. We all like this hotel, as the environment is nice. it's call K Hotels... After Check in, we go for our lunch, Stella is tire this time, so she have a short snap in the room. We walk along the Patong Beach, see around and try to get interesting food to eat. and we found a special food, BBQ Flog... it's very disgusting. However, Ah Bao still bough 1 to try, I have tried a bit too... IT'S REALLY SUCK..... after the lunch, we just back to hotels again. Me, Gary and KP was start out mahjong at the hotel's garden. however, I lose to both of them... Both them "tipu" my monay .. :(

After mahjong, it's around 2, I also cannot remember what time is it, too tire and lazy to look at the watch. We go out to look shopping again, with Gary, KP, and Pei Zi. Again, we look for massage center also. I took Foot massage this time, but not really enjoy this time. Coz I feel the massage girl just simply massage only, not really have good skill.

Around 5, we just go to Swimming, surprising, the swimming pool is very deep. I almost cannot touch the bottom. However, I like it, better then just normal swimming pool. When the time is dinner, we just come up and direct go for dinner first. We took our dinner just next to the hotel, it's quite reasonable price. So we just plan to have shower so can go enjoy the night live there... I very tire that time, so just a short sleep... I guess around 8 pm something, I hear there raining outside, haha,, it's really a bad luck , the rain like never stop. so I just continue sleep... until the next morning... a bit waste for the whole nite, but it's rain, nothing we can do also....

*Note: I didn't take my shower that day... haha...

Day 6, 23rd July, Didn't take photo for the last day
We not need to rush to anywhere today, so all of us just can sleep until anytime. Gary is the first person to wake up... I think he wake up ar 7, he old liao, cannot sleep much too... haha.. then I around 8 wake up. then go out to walk walk alone, as Ah Bao still sleep there and Gary already went out to cari makan. I just walk to the other side of the hotel, notice the 7-11 just next to our hotel (yesterday we went to another shop a bit far away to get our beer, we always buy a beer while walking at the street... haha), Feelling hungry already, so I get back to the restaurany where we have our dinner previously. Then saw Gary having his breakfast there also.. haha... Then I just join him

After breakfast, we back to hotel. As today is free and easy, we just enjoy our self. Around 10, after KP and Pei Zhi finished their breakfast, we start shopping again, it's time for me to get some surviner. As I not really buy any thing previously.... So time to spend money.. haha, we just walk the big round of the Patong Beach, and I success to bought some gift too, as some shell, and begs... Vteck and Stella meet up with us around 12, as it's time for us to take lunch also. While we still shopping, Vteck and Stella go look for some interest restaurant first. Finnaly they found a restaurant which at the beach site, and we enjoy the lunch over there. After lunch, we are thinking to read the novel or have sun tan beside the beach. But I didn't really bring anything out. so have to go back to hotel again. haha.. when we back to hotel, Gary and me getting lazy to walk back to the beach, so just call Vteck that we not going and reading at the pool site only. :) and we also swimming at the some time...

Around 6 pm... we go to look for massage again. Gary suggest to go place which a Big Building that provide massage service. Guess what, when we step in the building, it's not really a massage center, we just see a big glass, got a lot girls sit inside there. There wearing very sexy, and have number on their cloth.... I just look a bit then direct turn back to walk out.. haha... not use to this kind of place.. so we just continue to find another place for our massage.

While massage, me and Gary at the some room. he really like to talk, go and kacao the massage girl, and make us unstop laughing, and the massage girl also very enjoy chating. :D After massage, we need to back to hotel again, as Ah Bao not join us for massage so have to back there to meet with him.

Since this is the last night, we decide to choose a good environment restaurant to enjoy it... and we have our steak there... while having our dinner, it's raining again, and very heavy.... Really a bad luck for us, 2 nights in Phuket also rain. around 10, the rain still not stop, so we decide to move also. it's boring to just wait for the rain stop. We decide buy beer and back to hotel enjoy it. While walking back, the rain getting smaller, I see the opposite site still have selling something, So I just over to enjoy my last minute shop again.:)

While in the room, we bough some beer, and Stella have bring a bottle of ShouJiu from Korea... Ah Bao was drink alot this time, as when I pass to him the ShouJiu, he just drink it... and also, all of us just pretent drink it only, Finaly, almost half bottle of the ShouJiu drink by Ah Bao. So keng, we just have chit chating in the room the whole night, until 2am, we are getting tire. and they all back room to rest. Gary said he still awake, don't want to waste the last day in Phuket. So me, KP and Pei Zhi also go out again with Gary, Ah Bao want to go also, but he really drunk.. :P

The night is a bit late, around 2 am, some of the disco and the pub already closed, we just wake for half hour, and back to hotel... I really tire this time.. just fall on the bed and sleep..

Day 7, 24th July
This is the last day, Vteck and Stella already back to Singapore, as their flight is at 8am, so before I wakeup they already go to Air Port. the morning have nothing special, we just have our breakfast separately (as I wake up late today) haha... around 11, we check out and moving back to KL....

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Of course not.. haha...we took tuk tuk back to airport... the tuk tuk use the small road to the air port, really make us worry, we thought we will be rope this time.. but finally we still arrive airport safely... haha

Can view my Thailand photo here:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/10755942@N02/sets/72157601121785681

七月三十的我。。。心情加油站。。。

今天的心情有点怪，如果说我不开心，也没有啊。说我开心，又不是。只是总觉得提不起劲来。

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就很像有什么东西令我不开心。

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想了又想，就是找不出什么问题。很想开玩笑可是就做不到。不过也好，我也不想再开什么玩笑了，认真点。

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现在突然想起我的前女友，她曾说过我有点自暴自弃，现在想回，有一点吧。以前我很为我的事业奋斗，天天回家都会做自己的Freelance，做到半夜三更。。。现在我已不再做Freelance了，理由就是不想太累，为健康好，但是现在我还是没有早睡，而且还时常喝酒。。。其实我也觉得有点自暴自弃，我真的觉得我很懒了，浪费时间，不去争取多一点Freelance，而天天无所事事的在家里闷。所谓在家休息，其实就是懒惰的借口。

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看来我真的要做回我自己。不再嬉皮笑脸的过日子了，面对自己，别再骗自己。。。好好计划我的事业吧！！！加油！！！

泰国七天游。。。七月十八日到七月二十四日

这次的行程也没什么特别，因为四周围还蛮像在马来西亚，而我们也没什么参观其他地方。

在这七天游，最让我印象深刻的是Khao San Road（曼谷）。从我在网上找的资料，这是很多自由行游客的最爱。网页上看到的相片，感觉还很像我们的茨场街，我还当心会很杂。可是当我到达目的地时，真的是很不错的地方。那边并没有我想象的复杂。而且如果你没注意到卖摊位的人，你会以为自己身在西方国家。因为那边的旅客，95%是西方游客，比较少亚洲旅客。如果可以，我还想回去哪儿。因为我们只住了一晚，原因是因为害怕曼谷会暴乱。而我们也在到达的当天已买了去Samui的巴士票。

回想这一次的Backpack，也没什么特别的事情发生，毕竟我已去过曼谷和Phuket。而Samui也没我想象中的美，可能我们没真正的游玩吧。。。因为用了15个小时从曼谷来Samui，大家也累了，而且晚上又下了一场大雨。然后第二天又用了半天的时间出海Kayaking，结果也没多少时间可以真正的游玩Samui。。。

最后一站是Phuket，之前我已到过Phuket三次了，不过也只是工事而已。可能是雨季吧，既然两个晚上都下雨，所以我们也没什么见识到当地的夜生活。不过这儿可是我们在这次的旅程最好的旅店，K Hotel，名字没什么特别，但是却是我们最喜欢的一间，很幽静的环境，小小的游泳池。。。而且又是我们整个旅程中最便宜的旅店。

在整个旅程，大致上我们都是购物和按摩。。。唯一遗憾是没真正试当地的食物，我们大多都是到餐馆吃，都是旅客多，为了配合旅客，所以并不是真正当地的食物。还有一个，那边的酒很便宜，我们一边走街，一边拿着酒瓶的喝，感觉很不错也，哈哈。。。

如果想看我拍的相片，可以去我的friendster网站，http://www.friendster.com/btlee

An impossible wish - 女人心？？

A man walking along a California beach was deep in prayer.

Suddenly the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said, "Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grantyou one wish."

The man said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I can drive over anytime I want."

The Lord said, "Your request is very materialistic. Think of the enormous challenges for that kind of undertaking. The supports required to reach the bottom of the Pacific! The concrete and steel it would take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it, but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take a little more time and think of something that would honor and glorify me."

The man thought about it for a long time.

Finally he said, "Lord, I wish that I could understand my wife. I want to know how she feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent treatment, why she cries, what She means when she says nothing's wrong, and how I can make a woman truly Happy."

The Lord replied, "You want 2 lanes or 4 lanes on that bridge?"

女人心真的无人可预测。。。

矛盾的我？

这几天，心情很平静，可能是已将心里的话讲了出来，人也舒服得多了。结果，并不是我想要的，可是也是我意料中事。不过我还是相信，没有东西是不可能的。
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每一时刻，每一秒，这世界都在改变。人也是会变。这也是我的信念，这一秒可能我会很开心，可是下一秒又会这样？没人会知道。今天，可能我会喜欢喝酒，明天可能我会讨厌喝酒。但是并不代表我很善变，我只是想说，天时地利环境会临一个人改变，不同时候会令人有不同的想法。
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哈哈，其实以上或以下，都是以我当时的想法。我每一秒都会有不同的想法。你们可能会认为我没主见，很矛盾。这就是我，因为我时常都在改变，哈哈。

开心吗？

昨天，“她”告诉我“她”不开心。因为没有东西值得她高兴。。。
今天我问“她”，你觉得我现在生活开心吗？“她”答，普普通通，至少不会不开心。。。
我想，到底我本身开不开心。。。
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想真的，没什么事情会令我不开心。。。
朋友的关怀，我有。。。
家人的爱护，我也有。。。
所以我应该满足。。。

再想真点。。。我开心吗？
和朋友去喝酒，谈得还很高兴。。。
和朋友去看戏，也还不错。。。
和“她”出街，很舒服。。。
和“她”喝酒，还蛮不错，可是我并不是很喜欢喝酒。。。我有血压高嘛。。。
和“她”打桌球，虽然时常输，只要“她”开心我就开心。。。

不过说真的，我本身真的很开心吗？
想了一会儿。。。我真的很久没真正的发自内心的开心了。。。
表面上我很享受现在的生活，每天笑笑闹闹。可是过后又会闷闷不乐了，
因为这不是我想要的生活。。。

和“她”的日子，有很多美好的回忆。。。
真的真的很开心，现在还会笑在心里。。。
现在的“她”只是回忆了~

好了，我也是时候要争取我想要的生活了，做个开心人。。。

*note: 每个“她”，都是不同的人，你是否就是其中一个呢？

闷闷闷

我的同事说我最近变了许多，以前我每天嘻皮笑脸，最近却总是提不起劲来，每天都是一张无精打采的模样。。。我也不发觉有什么不对劲，可能我已经对我的工作有点闷了吧。。。工作就是酱的咯，如果没新鲜的工作，一定很闷的。。。

最近有点感冒，昨天既然八点已睡了，其实很想迟点才睡，可是真得太累了。。。今天，还有一点病，但还是带病做工。。。有点没力气的感觉，不过还挺得住。。。总好过呆在家里闷吧。

工作的我

一向不为公司的事务而烦的我，既然也会开始有点烦了。并不是因为工作忙而烦，而是为了一个很愚蠢的上司而烦。有人说过，一个好员工的离开，并不是公司福利不好，而是有一个不好的上司。
我加入这公司有年半了，虽说不是很久，可是我还很喜欢这公司的同事们。就算他们常常投诉我们的老板的不是，可是我永远认为做好本分就可以了。而就近有间公司给了个不错的Offer。而我开始也没什么兴趣，可是我的老板越来越不讲道理，令我真的有点心动想换工。惟有考虑考虑吧。

失败的我

其实在写这一这文章时，我有一点酒意。我真的很恨我自己，既然已喝醉了也不敢开口向喜欢的人说我爱你。永远只是在背后做一个无胆的人。我真的很失败。。。。
17th May 2007,刚从karaoke 回来。。。

新的开始，我的第一个部落格。

在很久前，已有一个念头想要开始我的部落。可是往往想了又没做，这就是我的性格吧!

最近，我才发现原来我有些朋友也有部落，也让我发现了他们的另一面。所以我也想把我心里面的世界说出来，应该是写出来吧！哈哈

每当孤单的时候，往往会想到一些很无聊的东西而令自己陷入烦恼里。虽然很快会没事，当这也不是什么好的想象吧！只会让自己离忧郁症更近。。。所以时常会做一些很无聊的事情来放松自己，这也另到其他人认为我很不认真。其实我也无所谓，最重要是自己开心。应该认真的时候就认真，不需要天天为了人家的眼光而绑着自己吧！开心就好，哈哈哈